Today I got up on time-had time to get ready, and made it to class on time!

..This shouldn't be this exciting, or a big accomplishment. But lately getting up in the morning is my mt. everest. It's sad, and I couldn't seem to shake my love of sleeping in. Then I got a new alarm clock. Today was my first day with it, and so far I love it! it is SOOO annoying and it wakes me up. It is all the way at the other side of my room, and I cannot take it back into bed with me like I do with my phone.

Along with this goal to wake up on time and get to all my classes, I have been setting other resolutions. My thought is that I will have done them by new years, because then I have a new resolution.

Goals:

-Learn to wake up and get going in the morning!

-Have nicer handwriting (I've been working on this, and its going well except when I try and write fast.) I need teacher writing. :)

-Think before I speak. I feel like lack of this was a big reason for my last breakup. Which sucks because we should not have broken up... anywho... I don't want to alienate any more people so I will be more careful with my sarcasm and harsh words.

Then... at new years I'm going to start back up with my P90X! I started over the summer being inspired by Ashley Peter, and I loved it. It just takes a lot of time (an hour a day), but I felt so good on it, and I really want to tone up. (tone down?) After the school year got into swing I stopped the P90X, but next semester I am taking 14 credits instead of 20, so I'm hoping I will have more time for exercise, and work :) Love my job!

also.... Only 2 more months until Christmas!!! Listening to Christmas music as I blog!!! Love it :)

First snow

Today was the first snow! It was so shocking to me this morning, but I was so happy. I don't know if I just needed a change, or some sort of beauty in my life, but it was very breathtaking to me today, and I liked it. I didn't mind the snow in my hair or in my eyelashes. I often find this very nice. Also, the weather was so nice. It was not very cold, and even though it was Monday, I had a pretty good day. Also, I was thinking the other day that I hadn't seen the free muffin lady all semester, and I didn't know if the free muffin Mondays were still going on. What to my wondering eyes should appear but free muffin Monday lady near Harvey this morning. Beautiful! Even though this is a cupcake blog, not a muffin blog, I have come upon it recently, and I like it. It's fun, and muffins and cupcakes are sisters. http://cupcakestakethecake.blogspot.com/

So it is 2:45, and I think I could have skipped the Rockstar tonight. I am wide awake, and I want to be sleeping. I loooove to sleep. And I haven't gotten a lot of it lately. So I haven't been able to dream very much.

This weekend when I went home, I got to go to So you Think You Can Dance live at the Bradley Center. It was really wonderful to watch, the dancing really moved me. I love dance. I love to watch it, and I wish I was still involved in actual dancing. I loved this dance :http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YS3qNcEBCv0&feature=fvw There is an intro to the dance so you can just ff to 1:05 if you want. Love Mia Michaels, love love love Sonya Tayeh. I had the privilege to take a class with her and it was amazing. She is such a hard ass. And she talked to me! specifically :) Love dance, I just LOVE it. :) Also, I got to see my baby kitty this weekend! I loved it. :) There's his pic, little Winston.

I had a dream last week where a girl from my hs got mad at me and smashed my ipod. It was with one of those meat tenderizer hammers, and the screen was smashed, and looked like a spider's web. The weird thing is, that a few days later at So you Think You Can Dance, there was a girl in front of me who had an ipod whose screen looked just like mine in the dream. ...coincidence?? certainly is creepy.

Dreaming

So last night I had an interesting dream...

I was at school, and in my geography class. in real life I have a really fun teacher and I like him, but he is SUPER anal about people texting in class. I got busted once. I wasn't about to argue with him when he said to stop texting, but I kinda wanted to inform him that I actually wasn't; I was on my ipod on facebook stalking to find out about my 'friend's' party I was not invited to. Then, after my test a few days later (which is a whole embarrassing story in and of itself) he said, "now what is going on with the texting?" There again, I wanted to tell him I actually WASN'T texting. But of course I crawled into my little shell and said nothing.

Anyway, in the dream I was in class and we were taking notes I believe. I had my computer out, which this teacher would NEVER allow. I was on facebook, which I obviously was not supposed to be doing. Then, I got a message or a chat or something from my teacher! He was trying to hit on me! while we were in class...

Later we were talking about the texting he had thought he saw me doing. I said I'm so sorry I don't want to be bad. And then he kissed me! Weird.

I don't know what that means :)

Wednesdays

Tonight I had a great experience.

I got to be paid to do something I loved!

I worked, and had so much fun, and even more than just pleasure, I had contentment. I enjoyed what I was doing, and if I do say so myself, I am good at it. :)

I never ever thought that I would like to work at a retail store. I love it.

I don't know if I have what it takes to be a teacher, I have doubts lately.

-What if I fail the children?

-Is it too much responsibility?

-What if children forget about me?

-I'm gonna burnout fast

-Kids can get annoying

-Do I have enough energy and personality to last through a day in front of impressionable youth?

....Who KNOWS!???

I guess I'll see where my path leads me.

All I hope is that the path leads me to happiness.

I want to be able to enjoy life.

I want to fall in love, and be loved back. It's the most amazing feeling I have ever known. I put my faith in love so much, and I fall so fast and so hard that I get hurt by love. It's just so powerful. But hopefully this hurt love has shown me will be juxtaposed by the intense happiness that love will bring me. :/

I have so much homework. :( It's one in the morning and I'm starting to think I should start on my homework.

goodnight Irene.

I hope I get to dream tonight!

First ever!

This is my first blog. :)

I have never blogged before, and it seems like a nice catharsis, if nothing else.

It is something I have always felt uneasy about, but something i want to try.

I thought that this would be a good idea to write down my dreams because lately they have been so wild and crazy.

One of my favorite things to do it sleep. And I love dreams. And sharing them.

So this will be a place where I will empty my mind.