Insomnia/=Productivity?

Last night I could not sleep. It could have something to do with the fact that my mother and I together drank an entire pot of coffee last night. But it wasn't a big deal, because I got a lot of stuff done. I went to bed at 4:30am, and spent some time organizing, puzzling, and sketching. I also watched a bunch of episodes of 30 Rock. This is my new obsession. It is a hilarious show, although I think I am catching on late. I have always heard it was funny, but now have had the chance to watch from the beginning.

Last night I was inspired to create a cruise line. It is called Blue Desperation. I am going on a cruise over spring break, and am excited to possibly wear some of these outfits.

I created some sketches from my ideas, and one reproduction out of the Victoria's Secret catalog. I got really into the sketching, and started to remember my love of drawing, and recalled my dream of being a fashion illustrator. These sketches are obviously still rough. These are obviously illustrations and not technical flats, so they are an ideation rather than the blueprint for the garments I will make. I wish my style was more cohesive. That will come hopefully. So here is a rough start of illustrations for my line:

This is the Vikki's sketch. (kind of a practice for myself) I don't know why the last one I uploaded popped up first on the blog.

This is the evening ensemble. Notice her class; she has wine. The "railroad tracks" behind her is actually the rail of the cruise ship. :)

Swim wear. Top is a wraparound and has an exaggerated side bow.

This is the first day of the cruise, with off-the-shoulder jumpsuit, and travel bag. Note the cruise ship in the background. She possibly just got off the flight.

And here is the puzzle of New York I got for Christmas last year, and finished last night/this morning:

I welcome all comments/questions/suggestions!

Clap Your Hands Say Yeah!

Christmas break has begun!! :)

I want to really get creative this break. Apart from making a painting of my dad's dead dog, I want to make a line of clothing. I have been afraid to commit this to blog, but I now have to be responsible for this project. For themes, I have thought about an athletic wear inspired theme; to spring off of my racer back dress I posted earlier. I will post sketches and pictures of the final garments. I am also thinking that if I do not finish this before break ends, I can do it over the course of the semester as well.

I have always wanted to do this, and why not?? It should be fun :) I want to include another dress that would be a transition day to night piece, and a jumpsuit. Separates would be another outfit possibility. OH! I just got sooo excited.

Also, I know that the picture from the clap your hands say yeah album does not exactly correspond with this post. But it's christmassy, and I just got home for christmas and am getting super excited. I'm going to do my last minute shopping tomorrow and help my mother with cooking prep. But the moral of the story is that if you haven't heard of Clap your hands say yeah, you should check them out. A good song to start off with is by the skin of my yellow country teeth. They are a fun offbeat band!

end o semester

This is my fourth year in college. I have one and a half years left! A lot of my friends are graduating this year! I feel as though it has been much less than four years. I feel like I should feel older... ya know??

Somehow I haven't managed to learn from my mistakes yet, and haven't been able to feel confident in what I know.

Maybe that will be my new years resolution... To grow up. I feel as though I can be grown up at times, but I am definately not ready for the real world or to graduate or to take responsibility for everything and anything I do. Also... I don't want college to end! I never thought I would say this, but this year school has been fun. I suppose this is what I wanted all these years of college! Friends, fun, sillyness, and people who I can trust and call my true, dependable friends.

I am so happy that I have started to discover this and experience what happiness in being where I am is.

I am not looking to the future, or worried about the past, but for once I feel like I am IN the present. And I just realized this! I am happy to see what is around the next corner, but not so scared of it anymore. :)

I am setting goals to make things better and I am realizing that some things can be amazing!

And maybe bad things in the past don't have to hang around so close. I try not to let them anymore.

Confession!

My roommates are making dinner and one just said,"I swear sometimes the stove smells like its melting" the other one, "I know!?"

...well I neglected to tell them that while I was living here over thanksgiving I made soup, and put wheat thins in it. Unfortunately, when I moved the soup off the burner, I put the bag of wheat thins on the still hot burner! Melted/burning plastic and wheat thins all over the burner. WHOOPs.

Boy do I feel better getting that off my chest.

semester reflection

For school, I have had to do a reflection upon my week every Friday. I thought it would be a good idea to do a reflection upon my entire semester.

Here are some things I accomplished:

-Downloaded a bunch of music, and am now experiencing new exciting music!

-Gotten closer to my roomies (wish we were closer tho)

-Improved my handwriting

-Worked on waking up on time (I'm pretty good at it now..)

-Learned to balance 20 credits and two jobs. Along with a bit of a social life!

-Wrote 8+6 lesson plans (thats 14)

-Made some friends in my major

-Kept my room clean.

-Got a promotion (even though it didn't pan out.)

-Got a new awesome job.

Things I would like to work on for next sem:

-Make more clothes

-Exercise more (P90X)!!

-Put more effort into school.

Over break, however, I want to read a lot of books and get started on sewing things. This is making me so excited!!

Suggestions for books to read would be greatly appreciated!

JOB

So today I quit my job at Express. I was promised a management promotion I did not get, and then promised to be trained to be a manager even though I was not going to be one... but then that fell through too. I was also told that I would be trained as a fashion expert (a kind of personal wardrober who is very knowledgeable about Express clothing.) This hasn't happened either. So when another girl was given the management job which I was next in line for, I decided I had had enough. I am working there until the 20th.

This may be good, however, because its always fun starting a new job, and I will try and get one in the childcare field.

Let me know if anyone sees any places that are hiring, or if you have a connection to a childcare job, that would be ideal!

Stuff

http://www.storyofstuff.com/

Oh wow.

Everyone should watch this.

My love

So I have decided that I don't sew enough. I love it! But I seem to have trouble finding time. I of course find time to sit in front of the tv, or take forever to do my homework with 20 distractions rather than doing it all in one chunk. So I posted these pictures up here to inspire myself. I made this dress over the summer and it is the last thing I have really made! Embarrassing. It makes me excited that I can actually make soemthing like this. I dreamed it, sketched it, and sewed it. It wasnt even hard. And most of all it was FUN. I have friend who is always praising me for this, and saying how much I need to use my talent more, and work on it and get better at it. I think it is important to spend time doing something you love, and I just want to get a start on it because I seem to have forgotten what it feels like to take something from the sketchbook to real life and actually be proud of it. Also, I need to get out of this FUNK. I just need to get back on the horse! I am going on a cruise over spring break, so I think my next project will be making a dress for that. Or a jumpsuit. I have been wanting to make a jumpsuit for some time, because they are so cute and in. The only problem is I have no money, and most of the jumpsuits I see have wide legs, so that I don't want to buy them. I think it would be a nice challenge for me. Either way I have the itch to CREATE!! Now all I've gotta do is scratch :)

Confusion

Sometimes I can get confused between what is real and what is a dream. My subconscious must be powerful, because it often has a big impact on my conscious thoughts and behaviors. For example, if someone is annoying and pissing me off in a dream, I will literally wake up MAD(at them). I don't much care for that, because that person didn't necessarily do anything to make me mad... except for piss off my subconscious in some weird way. In addition.. this is NO way to start off a day. On the other hand, I can have a really romantic dream about someone, and the next day I am suddenly looking at them in a whole new light... I will just find them so much more attractive. This happened to me the other night. A friend from a while back accidentally texted me the other day. I was actually missing this guy recently. He meant to send the text to another Anna, but this text from him got my mind reeling. In my dream we were so in love, and we were married with a little baby! I woke up the next day and I couldn't stop thinking about this guy! I wanted to text him back and tell him :) But I refrained to retain some illusion of sanity. Also recently there has been some drama in my house. It has been unreaLL. But I have woken up having dreams about this situation, and I won't know which details actually happened and which I had dreamed. Sometimes things clear up through the day, but its scary because sometimes I don't know at all what was dream and what was reality! It makes me feel nuts, but I think it is also amazing what your subconscious is capable of doing, and how vivid and real my dreams are. I love the hyper-realistic dreams, mostly the ones that are really romantic and happy :)