end o semester

This is my fourth year in college. I have one and a half years left! A lot of my friends are graduating this year! I feel as though it has been much less than four years. I feel like I should feel older... ya know??

Somehow I haven't managed to learn from my mistakes yet, and haven't been able to feel confident in what I know.

Maybe that will be my new years resolution... To grow up. I feel as though I can be grown up at times, but I am definately not ready for the real world or to graduate or to take responsibility for everything and anything I do. Also... I don't want college to end! I never thought I would say this, but this year school has been fun. I suppose this is what I wanted all these years of college! Friends, fun, sillyness, and people who I can trust and call my true, dependable friends.

I am so happy that I have started to discover this and experience what happiness in being where I am is.

I am not looking to the future, or worried about the past, but for once I feel like I am IN the present. And I just realized this! I am happy to see what is around the next corner, but not so scared of it anymore. :)

I am setting goals to make things better and I am realizing that some things can be amazing!

And maybe bad things in the past don't have to hang around so close. I try not to let them anymore.